Angel of Death...

They say death is hardest on the living. It’s tough to actually say goodbye. Sometimes it’s impossible. You never really stop feeling the loss. It’s what makes things so bittersweet. They leave little bits of themselves behind, little reminders, a lifetime of memories, photos, trinkets, things to remember them by… even when they’re gone.         

My first ever memory of death dates back to 1994, when I saw Mufasa lose his life trying to save Simba from the hyena attack. A scene that made me tear up back then and continues to rattle my emotions even today.

These last few months have been heart breaking, gut wrenching, harrowing, tragic, distressing and grievous to say the least. 

Angel of Death making its presence felt around me. 

My time off from work was supposed to be about relaxing & stress free. Its been anything but that. I now want time off from my time off if this is what it supposed to be like. 

Three very dear people, gone to a better place. 

RK - A sweet & generous soul. Battled failing kidneys for 6 years. Months & Months of dialysis, hospital visits and modulated diets - she smiled through it all. You ask how, she did it all for her only child NK (a child prodigy). She said she got her energy looking at her. Guess that's the strength of mother.  

My best memory of her definitely is her dancing at my uncle's sangeet. She loved dancing. When she got married and came into our family 'Ek Do Teen' was a rage. She had the best dance steps choreographed to it. Still brings a smile to my face when I hear that song.  

You will always be my 'Ding Dong Mami'  

Rest In Peace - 6th July, 2013 

Ipsy - The most lovable little fur ball ever. From the day I got to know of your failing kidneys, to the day you finally left us. It was the most emotionally traumatic week for me. Something inside me broke & I felt a massive void. To think someone who could talk had such overpowering feelings over me. 

So many memories, pictures and moments. Forever captured in my heart. My most favourite one would definitely be, How you:

- Waited alongside me when I stood outside to be picked up for a late night movie

- Walked me to the back door on nights I came back home from a night out

- Escorted me to the cab in the mornings, when I was leaving to work

- Lounged in my room on the days when we were home alone

You weren't a family pet, you were family. Possessive like a brother, Protecting like a father, Loving like a mother and just the Best Friend. Now every dog I ever get will always be compared to you and never match up. That's how much you spoilt me. Thanks for all the love.

You will always be my ''Ipsoodi"

Rest In Peace - 23rd July, 2013 

BL - The eldest of my father's siblings. He was so different from the remaining 4, whether it was physical appearance, or just his outlook to life. He had the most beautiful light green eyes. Those eyes I will remember forever. He loved to have a good time. Always had some new jokes & riddles to entertain. We shared a common love 'Pani Puri,' always in competition to see who  could eat more in one sitting. His life's motto was "Ask and you shall receive" Having fulfilled wishes of his parents, siblings, children and grandchildren all his life. He truly lived life king size.

Two blind people now see the world through my beloved uncle's eyes.  Having donated his eyes he continues to keep a watch on us. Thank you for sticking around.

You will always be missed, Tauji.

Rest In Peace - 22nd September, 2013

We’re all gonna die. We don’t get much say over how or when. But we do get to decide how we’re gonna live. So do it. Decide. Is this the life you wanna live? Is this the person you wanna love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out, and decide.